Update, Anyone?

New post new post new post. This is going to be unstructured, you've warned! So Alan, things with him are developing, but I'm not sure if it's good or bad. He's very vague with me, and it's almost like he's trying to hide anything interesting(which is vital for converstion!) from me. I don't know. Maybe because I realise how shit people are. And he's bi. I'm always suspicious of bi people. Here's my analogy. Say someone sits on the path outside your house one night. You look out and you know their there. And then an hour later, their still there. Is he coming or going? Waiting for someone? The one? That's what bi people are like. I know it's weird, but anyway.

It's the 22nd of Decmeber boys and girls. This time 3 days, my house will be full of family, there'll be turkey in the oven and I'll have a new laptop! I restored this one the other day. Like completely. Put almost everything (I wrote this bitchin' post and saved it to my documents. then wiped my hard drive. I'm a tit, I know) Anyway. So now my laptop is super fast and ready to be given away to whoever wants it/put into storage.

The 22nd also means that the days start getting longer again. Longer hours of daylight, because I was convinced that I had that disorder where no sunlight and shitty weather affects your mood. I'd been so low for the last week or two. Could just be Christmas stress?

I'm a lot closeer to the DIT homo society. After wednesday night, things are going great with everyone. And I have loads of fun new people to go gaybaring with. Yes, you read right. Gaybaring, the act of going from gay bar to gay bar checking out purty boys.

Actually, morality time! If I'm only 'seeing' Alan, whatever the fuck 'seeing' means, can I kiss other people? Or is that cheating? I personally wouldn't consider it heating because we're not in a relationship, he made that very clear to me.

Went out on Saturday night. Didn't leave the house to midnight, got to the party at twenty past midnight. Police arrived at half. So we walked to the 24 hour supermarket. And purchased junk food. ANd sat in the car park eating it. It was so mundane, but I laughed and smiled and felt young.

Fuck me! This time 9 months I'll be 20. I'm going to be in my 20s. Now there's a downer. I'll be dead soon!

This is from saturday. Myself and a very old friend of mine. I know for a face that she would take off her shoe and beat me to death with it, if she knew I put this terrible photo of her online.